Work perpetually in progress

Spider monkey taken at the Bonnet House

Most of my work day consists of me sitting there, boss-less and paralyzed from doing anything truly productive. I don’t make the most of those wasteful hours. Instead I worry. Most would take advantage, but I feel guilty. Guilt is a byproduct of scruples. Work ethic is a part of having scruples ... or is it? I need to learn to relax and let go – to stop resisting.

I am thankful for a great many thing, including my teeth, lol. Teeth are important, as are a sound mind and body, both of which I’m equipped.

Is showing insecurity and fear a sign of weakness? I think not. I think if anything, exposing them for what they are allows us to heal and embrace all of who we are. Those who openly acknowledge their fears, who show their vulnerabilities, who learn from and move past them, are brave -- are strong and are all the wiser for it.

My co-worker shared a quote with me that I so love and added to my list of favorite quotes: "Always be a first-rate version of yourself instead of a second-rate version of someone else." - Judy Garland

I received calls from individuals only too ready to place blame. If there’s anything that gets me ruffled and puts me on the defensive, it’s being wrongly accused. We should all choose to live in a state of "how can fix this?" instead of "who can we blame?"

... Anyway, each day I wonder how I will do with eating strictly raw. I’ve been indulging more on processed food and would like to cut back down. I’m also trying to keep my neurotic tendencies down, and live a life of simplicity and effortlessness. I don’t want to work too hard at anything, and that goes for my digestion as well. I’m thinking of what TT said about going 2 days on God-made food (unprocessed) and one day on Man-made food (processed – what the body doesn’t recognize). She said that enables ample time for our insides to eliminate most efficiently. I’ll have to say this is the ideal, as it would keep my neurotic tendencies about food down and enable me to live and enjoy a little bit of everything with minimal guilt.

The house is being worked on; and a lot of stuff is out of place as a result. I liken it to myself: work perpetually in progress ... :)